Madison, I don’t know what to do.

John and Kiersten are becoming best friends and I just feel so alone.

It’s like they avoid me. I try to talk to John almost everyday and he usually just walks off after I say hi. 

I don’t understand why they’re doing it. Kaci too. They barely even look at me and I keep seeing pictures of them together and it kills me.

They all went to prom together. I was gonna ask John but he said he was gonna go with Kiersten.

Another thing is that I feel like they’re being excused from everything in school, while I keep getting yelled at for not doing shit. Just because I don’t act sad all the time doesn’t mean I’m totally fine.

I’m just being overly emotional and paranoid I guess. 

I was just really excited to be closer to them after this happened and now they’re all close and can talk to eachother about it and I’m just normal.

I only talk to my parents. I want to talk to someone but obviously if someone comes up to me and school with that stupid worried face and asks, “How you holding up?” I’m gonna laugh and say I’m cool because I can’t just say, “No, I feel like shit, will you talk to me?” Like what is that? How am I supposed to answer that question?